Hi, it's me

 Wag na mag english! Hahaha 36 years old na si Gaga, at naubos na 15 yrs ago. Anywaaaaay.....  eto na nga.. in fairness ha, ang dami kong drama years ago! So, eto na nga.. let's try to be less dramatic and be less emotional sa mga succeeding post ni Gaga. 

Quick update lang for future references

● wala na si Daddy

            So please be patient with me if I post something depressing here. Sorry na agad

● sa drugstrore ako nag wo-work 

            Yes, doon. Medyo toxic pero keri lang. So be prepared to read office gossips and office reklamo sa future! Hahah!

● 36 yrs old na ako

              Ew,  ang shonda ko na! Just being me trying to live one day at a time. To enjoy what I have, appreciate now and love those 

Oh crap. 

Kapit lang. 

😁

Reklamo.

Nakakainis.

Nakakainis ng Bonggang Bongga..

tatawagan ka pag may kailangan ka.. nakakapikon na din.. mapapa Sh*T ka nalang ng wala sa oras.. yung tipong parang alipin ka nya.. Napaka INSENSITIVE! hindi man lamang makahalata.. (insensitive nga e)

alam mo bang wala na akong nagawang trabaho nang dahil sayo?! alam mo ba na pending lahat ng reports ko dahil sayo?! alam mo ba na nakakawalang gana sumagot ng telepono kung ikaw lang naman ang nasa kabilang linya?! anyway.. bukod nga pala sa insentive ka, isa kang slave driver.

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! ay mali.. dapat pala.. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

nyemas naman talaga! :D

so, with all my might.. been dying to ignore you and to escape from you... what I did was simple..

YES! I turned off my cell phones and left my phone at home ringing...

tu-tut... tu-tut...

message call cannot activate.. please try again later.. or never!

naghihimutok - garet

Ganon lang ba yon?

Matagal tagal na din diba?

after that interview.. I've to apply again for Health Options.

I don't know what would happen to me.. but I am wishing for my life to be meaningful maybe not now.. maybe next year...

Christmas is almost here and yet we do not have any decorations at home.. maybe it's because I can't still accept that only three of us will celebrate it.. I really miss her.. SO MUCH!

I'm really hoping for a good new year.. I am not tired yet.. I just want to restart my life..

Break..

ti's really a long break for me.. imagine, four months of doing the most boring routine in life. I'm just conscious of the things that poeple would say about me...

Look at her, she finished her studies, passed the boards and she's there doing nothing... !

stupid thought! :)

But at the end of it.. I'm happy.. and for me, that would be the very important status for now.

(REALLY???)

I juggled wrds earlier at my interview...

Mountains, trees, rivers. These are my haven. I saw this exact scene when the whole San Juan clan went to Dalitiwan somewhere in Laguna. But it all became blur because I fell there on the middle of water and I laugh.

PANAGINIP LANG PALA.

Today is my nightmare. I have an interview and it's GOOD NEWS because even if Watsons ignored my application at least finally someone out there is willing to give me a chance. Yes, interview. But I hate being questioned and that's BAD NEWS. I don't know what to say, how to start. Every interview to me is like being a criminal being fired up with different questions and I pictured myslef struggling how to deliver my answer in a way that I wanted to be understood. (just like now) Okay, this isn't my first interview. Before, I've had an interview from a popular hospital (take note: PANEL INTERVIEW) and from a known company. So this would be my fourth interview.

Interview, Inner-view.

The interview. The first part of the interview went well it's like having a chat with a stranger. The exchange of conversation is quite good and very light. I feel comfortable and I found myself enjoying the interview. At least. But it all crashed down to the second part of interview. I find her questions a little bit out of the way.. like..

Q: What is you favorite sport?

A: Table Tennis

Q: Why?

A: I find it easy to play and it doesn't require a lot of effort like in bastketball and volleyball. It is less harmful too than to other sports.. Tama lang po. Ayos lang.

Q: How tama lang? Anong tama lang?

The Heck! To me that question should be kept under the mattress.. Of course some familiar questions been fired up like:

TELL ME SOMETHING ABOUT YOURSELF

Which, of course, I find hard to answer.. weird. And the question that I wished doesn't existed:

HOW DO YOU HANDLE STRESS

I really hate that question.. HAHA! It should be rephrased: HOW STRESS HANDLES YOU?

freak! Maybe I take interviews in a negative way..maybe one day I'll wake up craving for more questions. Life is full of questions, humans have the answers and only God do have the conclusions.

After that I went straight to the mall and I walked for an hour. Actually, I wanted to run but I chose to walk instead. The feeling of disappointment is now fading and I'm starting to feel tired.

I'M TIRED!

I'M REALLY REALLY TIRED! :)

WhatAbouts

I went to Veterans last Wednesday (obviously, I didn't make it last Tuesday) after dealing with some errands on my 'formal attire' finally, they let me signed the application form. After that, I took the entrance exam. The first set was SO easy. BrandName, GenericName, Indication - Chicken! But my fingers froze with the second set - COMPUTATION. Ew, I'm poor at computing dose and everything about numbers.. and I wished that I just disappeared when I saw the question at the third set - ESSAY! Okay. Hospital Pharmacist IS really a tough one. After hunting the answers at the last two set, I observed the scenes around me.

There's a man behind me typing and typing at his computer..hmmm my previous prof was at the corner cubicle talking to someone. There are a lot of pharmacist doing pharmacy-thing on the other half side of the room. Various people come in and out of the room. They'll talk, smile, laugh and bid goodbye to everyone and before leaving the room will smirked at me.. and I'll just nod them with a smile. Before I realized something, UWIAN na pala. A woman with a respectable uniform approached me and get my paper..

"We'll just call you, since our head pharmacy is not here"

I stood up and bid goodbye to her and also to my prof.

So that's it? I walked helplessly out of that room and saw a strong rain outside. I sit at the stair near the lobby and waited till my strength came back to me...

"this is bad news: we'll call you" I said to myself.

I really felt like crying but that doesn't help any of the current situation now. After the rain, I stood up and decided to continue my life.

'dod papunta palang ako ortigas'

I remembered my agenda for that day. It's Pulong Day with my cousins. That thought fueled me. I left my frustrations at the vicinity of Manila and as soon as I entered Cardona, life again became simple..

I saw that wonderful view again.. sea, trees, island.. collectively known as HAPPINESS.

hmmm

I just had a very short chat with my ate but she just disappeared in the chat room.. We were just talking about my job application for tomorrow. She said "don't get disappointed easily" and I think I'm going to take that as an advice.. :)

Yes, tomorrow. I'll try to fix my life again though it wasn't really broken.. just some pieces missing somewhere.. hmmm.. I'm freaking nervous. was it going to be another Walatsons? I want to work again.. really. I want to be tired again from work. Say good morning to my superior and everything that work has something to do. Of course, I also miss getting paid every 15th and 30th of each month. I am hoping for a better day tomorrow.

Lord, please. :-)

Now.

QUICK:

I passed the Pharmacy Board Exam last January 2010.

Thank God!

(ang liit ng image..)

I worked at Manson Drug last March 10 2010

But I got terminated last Aug 25 2010

I had a minor surgery on my lips..

It hurts and kinda painful.. but as the saying goes “NO PAIN, NO GAIN” and until then, I considered myself a RETOKADA one.. it’s really odd… really..

Then my sister flew to Sudan Africa. I miss her so much.. I never shed any single tear from the day she’d left us.. BUT there’s something in me that’s quite weird.. I feel so incomplete.

I’ve been watching The Vampires Diaries and looking forward to watch the second season..hmm..I’m dying to learn how to drive…

My behavior is extremely terrible now… my moody-ako-mode has been turned on 24/7 and I don’t like that. .. all I want to do is write but everytime I’ll hit the keyboard or hold a pen, thoughts just flew everywhere and gone. Out of nowhere. Poof!

My world stuck somewhere else’s hands… I wanna have life.